Heaven

Tearing through the things that they say
 Can't see the walls, they're not in my way
 Would you believe that I'm okay
 Thought I was gone, but I'm here to stay
 Heads under water, my feet on the ground
 Life is a circus, I'm making my rounds
 Painted a picture, thought they would see
 Looked in the mirror, but it wasn't me
 Walking on water, I can't flee
 Been through some things that you wouldn't believe
 Stepping on fire, my soul bleeds
 Come purify me, I wanna be free
 Reach for the surface, my head in a cloud
 Look for my purpose, nowhere to be found
 Ripped through my canvas, got paint on my sleeve
 Heaven is real, it's not only a dream
 But heaven ain't close and I know the ropes
 And I popped a pill 'cause I couldn't cope
 And I need to feel and I needed hope
 I talked to God but He never spoke
 I feel the distance, I know the mission
 I'm not forgotten, I'm not for quitting
 I should forgive, I need forgiveness
 I'm condescending, cry me a river
 I'm empathetic, I know ya pain
 I'm contradicting, I can't explain
 I need a witness, y'all need to listen
 Why gain the world and lose everything
 That's my dilemma, I'm no pretender
 Don't ask for nothing, y'all got agendas
 Ain't have my back and I still remember
 It's not a race but I'm gonna win it
 I'm gonna
 Walking on water, I can't flee
 Been through some things that you wouldn't believe
 Stepping on fire, my soul bleeds
 Come purify me, I wanna be free
 Reach for the surface, my head in a cloud
 Look for my purpose, nowhere to be found
 Ripped through my canvas, got paint on my sleeve
 Heaven is real, it's not only a dream
 It's not only a dream
 It's not only a dream
 I been down before, I done drowned before
 I'm still on the road, there is always hope
 Tied a string onto my heart and let it go
 Looking back it might've been regrettable
 Never put your pain up on a pedestal
 When it rain you gotta buy a better coat
 Winter time you gotta keep the fye close
 I got magic now they think I'm Indigo
 I could never die I feel invincible
 If I cry it's just to help a flower grow
 Conquered things I thought was insurmountable
 Tell 'em to look at me now
 I am the prodigal child
 I am the church in the wild
 I am the truth in a vow
 I am the servant that talked to the serpent and told him the devil a lie
 I am the flow in a spring
 I'm the descendant of kings
 Don't think y'all know what I mean
 I had no reason to live
 I found a reason to sing
 I found a reason to breathe
 I got the faith of a seed
 Maybe that's all that I need
 They wasn't privy when nothing was pretty
 So they cannot sit at my table and eat
 They cannot
 Heaven is real, it's not
 Heaven is real, it's not
 It's not only a dream