Searching

Feels like my whole life's in a disarray
 I say I'm alright but honestly I'm not okay
 What happened to the head I had on my shoulders
 I guess this is what happens when you're getting older
 At 17 I thought I had it all figured out
 Doing music is the only thing I dreamed about
 But all the passion I had it seemed to leave me
 Feels like my soul departed from my body
 So now I fill that void with sex and drugs
 Psychedelic fuckin and smoking on nugs
 Thinking that it's gonna reignite that Fire
 Burning desire, I'm lost and now I'm
 Searching for, for the answers
 I can't cope, with this cancer
 Lost no hope
 Maybe I should end it all
 Oh.
 Searching for, for the answers
 I can't cope, with this cancer
 Lost no hope
 Maybe I should end it all
 Oh.
 I know what I have is a blessing
 If I'm being grateful why the fuck am I stressing
 Maybe it's the universe tryna teach me a lesson
 That things get harder once you graduate adolescence
 This shit is taking a toll on my personal life
 Making me bitter towards my girl and family I
 Never knew what depression would ever feel like
 Until I lost my drive
 I'm sounding like a muh fucking drama queen
 Just want you to know how much this means to me
 Music's my oxygen and I cannot breathe
 Looking for inspiration so now I'm
 Searching for, for the answers
 I can't cope, with this cancer
 Lost no hope
 Maybe I should end it all
 Oh.
 Searching for, for the answers
 I can't cope, with this cancer
 Lost no hope
 Maybe I should end it all
 Oh.