Watching the Waiting

When I made my plan
 There were some things for which I did not account
 I could not have seen myself here
 In a place I've been before
 Seeing everything all over
 As if I could really know
 As if I am sure
 And you say it's about time
 But you know I'm not used to having enough
 And there is nowhere I need to go
 And there is nothing left to do
 And I am sitting watching myself
 Watching you
 Watching the waiting
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 When I move to stand
 My muscle memory is keeping me up
 Real memory is also similarly cruel
 To see his face in front of me
 Out of the blue, for no reason at all
 And I don't suppose
 I'll be able to tell him how sorry I am
 But like the guard settles in for another long night
 I keep watch for a danger and I may not recognize
 But I keep my eyes open
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 All I know is this
 There are times when, to me
 You seem to glow from within
 And I wonder how this moment could possibly be
 And how much was of my choosing
 And what chose me
 And I couldn't care less
 When it all adds up
 And I feel I am closest to what I really am
 And there is nowhere I need to go
 And there is nothing left to do
 And I am sitting watching myself
 Watching you
 Watching the waiting