Lifer

You worry I have given up
 Have lost direction for the cause
 Have traded truth for confidence
 Went back on all my promises
 I am not old but I've become
 Afraid of things I never was
 And stumbling on without a pause
 Can only go so long
 Did you say that I was the lifer?
 Did you say that life could be better?
 It seems to those who know me best
 My luck is wild and in excess
 I don't know why some suffer so
 And others never fear to go
 I won't reduce myself to air
 Undo myself for your affair
 I've shown you everything I am
 You choose or not to understand
 There is a logic to the rule
 The end is kind, the mean is cruel
 I have to love the life I make
 Make up for all the space I take
 Mistaken for an oversight
 The absence of my appetite
 The source of all my arrogance
 I left it up to chance
 I believed that I was the lifer
 I believed that life could be better
 I want to see you rise again
 To see life in your eyes again
 To feel your pulse is beating strong
 To prove all of us wrong
 Will you say that you are the lifer?
 Do you think that life could be better?
 Will you say that I am the lifer?
 Do you think that life could be better?