Soak It Up

You cut off your hair
 Despite all the warnings
 And burned all my letters
 On your concrete block
 I wasn't there
 When they found you
 In the morning
 I found a bullet
 While you were finding God
 I'll take the blame
 But drinking's just too easy
 And I can't soak it up
 When the memories
 Start to run
 I have a plan
 That could get us
 To the next town
 But I never thought
 I'd drive this far
 Without a gun
 When the hurricane came
 I didn't board the windows
 I knew by the name
 It was coming for me
 I wasn't there
 When the sun came
 In the morning
 I never had a reason
 To stay anyway
 I'll take the shot right
 Between the eyes
 But I just can't soak it up
 When the memories start to run
 I have a plan
 That could get us
 Through the next four summers
 I never thought
 I'd drive this far without a gun