Soapy Water

I wash my face with soapy water
 Disguise the tears 'cause you're somebody's daughter
 And they don't ever wanna see you cry
 Anxiety's grip is always waiting to take me
 It sits in my stomach, I fear it's starting to shape me
 It's hard to live when you're scared to die
 If I'm gonna sit and wait, then I might as well
 Ask for the hand of the Devil himself
 I thought I heard her laugh, but it was hard to tell
 So look into my eyes and see how close I am to crack
 But they just say hello and never look back
 I thought I heard them talk, but it was hard to catch
 Superstition has me out of control
 Touch my head and bless my soul
 I pray it ain't a feeling, but my soul is just old
 'Cause nothing heals misery's fist
 No witch's pill, no lover's kiss
 If life is easy, then what is this?
 If I'm gonna sit and wait, then I might as well
 Ask for the hand of the Devil himself
 I thought I heard her laugh, but it was hard to tell
 So look into my eyes and see how close I am to crack
 But they just say hello and never look back
 I thought I heard them talk, but it was hard to catch
 Light a smoke, put it out
 Search for rooms, out of town
 Start again, cut your hair
 You've wondered love, but it's hard to care
 (I'll care, I'll try to care)
 Choose a religion, choose a goddamn sport
 Go find something to eradicate these thoughts
 You might not waste time and keep good health
 But that's not it, there's something else
 If I'm gonna sit and wait, then I might as well
 Ask for the hand of the Devil himself
 I thought I heard her laugh, but it was hard to tell
 So look into my eyes and see how close I am to crack
 But they just say hello and never look back
 I thought I heard them talk, but it was hard to catch