Waves Control

Fuck it, why don't you just let me overdose?
 I did it again, and woke up again
 Tired of running from all these withdrawals, keep losing my friends
 This might be my end
 All of these drugs while I'm counting my ends
 Fuck it I'm dead
 Fuck it I'm dead inside
 And now you know why
 Now that I'm gone, I'm on the run
 Alone in my room I look down at my gun
 Picking it up, I don't want to give up but I'm stuck in this rut that I've dug and I'm fucked
 The drugs didn't help
 I blame myself for the shit I've been dealt
 Tell you I'm cool but I'm losing my grip
 Tell you I'm good but I'm losing my shit
 You didn't want to take him to the hospital
 All you really wanted was his capital
 Another one lost that we cannot predict
 This is a plague and we cannot pretend
 Another mistake might cost you your life
 When you're sticking the needle and walk towards the light
 Letting go of all I've ever known
 I wanna feel the wave's control
 Tighten its grip around my throat
 Crashing over me, I'm holding on
 Feel the narcotics might never wake up
 All of these bodies just start to pile up
 And that's when it hits you and rips you perplexed
 Now you are floating, it's on to the next
 Now I'm letting go, let the chemicals control
 I'm holding on
 Always dismissed do you get the gist?
 I'm holding on
 Letting go of all I've ever known
 I wanna feel the wave's control
 Tighten its grip around my throat
 You never really ever gave a shit
 Always dismissed do you get the gist?
 Always kneeling down
 I'm an addict with a crown
 Don't you love the sound when my body hits the ground?
 Why don't you just let me drown?
 Fuck it, why don't you just let me overdose?
 I did it again, and woke up again
 Tired of running from all these withdrawals, keep losing my friends
 This might be my end
 All of these drugs while I'm counting my ends
 Fuck it I'm dead
 Fuck it I'm dead inside
 And now you know why