magic spellz

What I feel lately is 50 shades of hate me
 And I can't seem to break free
 I don't like what I'm feelin' maybe
 My self-medicating
 At the point of breaking
 I'm not sure if you're relating
 I just need to feel like I'm the one worth saving
 You lift me up in times when I wanna die
 Intoxicated by your magic spellz you weave all the time
 You bring me down every time I feel alive
 I'm trying, I'm living I'm dying this minute
 You bring me up and take me down
 Life smacks the face I hold my ground
 Another day to sing this song aloud
 I wonder can they hear me screaming
 Switch it now, change the day and take whatever comes my way I gotta
 Say that this magical spell is heaven or hell when it
 Plays it can lighten or darken up your day push it away
 You lift me up in times when I wanna die
 Intoxicated by your magic spellz you weave all the time
 You bring me down every time I feel alive
 I'm trying, I'm living I'm dying this minute
 I try to live but they want me to cease to be
 I'm shedding skin cutting teeth and becoming me...
 Finger pointed shaming an everybody blaming
 What if I leave escaping
 This I know it'll be here waiting
 Anticipating
 My downfall on the daily
 But you give all that you gave me
 And it saved me and it saved me and it saved me
 You lift me up in times when I wanna die
 Intoxicated by your magic spellz you weave all the time
 You bring me down every time I feel alive
 I'm trying, I'm living I'm dying this minute