Up to Me

you did it before and you'll do it again
 wasting all the time i spent
 you cut off your nose to spite your face
 and everything's such a daze
 cause you're not focused and i know
 i know that my feelings will show
 wish it went back to the way it was
 but i know it can't be
 i'm running on empty, i'm runnin on empty
 remember what it meant to me
 it's up to me, i realize now
 i guess its up to me, and i'll win somehow
 i guess its up to...
 you're absent and i know it
 and it's time to let me show it
 i just wish you were the same
 i guess it's up to me
 and i know (lets go)
 changing faces and fading fast
 the way that you always have
 the piece of mind that felt like home
 is battered and broken and old
 and sometimes things, they pass you by
 and that's why i'm wondering why
 the easiest thing is to be weak
 and you're lazy so you'll stay that way