Decompose

I awake to shades of grey
 Stumbling silhouette just broke the ashtray
 Try to remember why you're in my room
 The cocaine never lets you sleep
 It only supplements the drinking
 Did a chemical reaction transform you to this?
 I don't know what I'd do
 if I ever saw you outside of my nightmares
 Down on your knees saying your prayers
 The whites in your eyes
 Turned to yellow
 You're decomposing
 Tobacco stained teeth hide behind cracking lips
 Makes smiling hard without bleeding
 It's spinning out of control
 This condition far worse than critical
 Pinch myself awake but this is no dream
 Wither and die in front of me
 There's been a big mistake 'cause that shit you drank
 was no love potion
 You're trying hard but getting nothing
 I won't play a part in this game of you self-destruction
 Step outside you're getting nothing