Love Suicidal

You are just another girl and so am I
 How we love each other is by our design
 They may never ever understand
 We may never ever understand
 I cannot deny myself forevermore
 And I won't apologize for being born
 We have only one life to give love
 I could die without a chance to love
 I have to tell you my heart
 I wrote it all down in my journal and left it open
 For you to find on my desk
 Right next to the photo of us hand in hand after church
 Don't you know this world is such a lonely place
 So devoid of love that god could not replace
 It is all just made up in their minds
 And their love is no more real than mine
 When you read on you will find
 The last words that I'll ever write are meant only for you
 I saved up all of my meds
 Enough so I won't fail again
 I'm not scared anymore
 I have nowhere left to turn
 My god and my church have both failed me like they failed before
 I knelt down beside my bed
 And prayed that this torture would end
 I'm not scared anymore