Feelin

Spent the winter pretendin' I'm okay
 And I love a sinner 'cause they look the other way
 But I been goin' under, pretendin' that I'm okay
 I'm a girl of thunder, wishin' all the world away like
 Wine with dinner, I talk, but I don't say
 How I been feelin'
 How I been feelin' about (hey)
 All of these feelings
 Or do you want me now?
 How I been feelin'
 Pretendin' I'm dealin' without (hey)
 But I ain't feelin'
 Or do you want me out? (Ha)
 Was it easy deciding you're not mine?
 Do you feel me? Do I ever cross your mind?
 And I hate that you affect the way I feel at all
 I don't deserve to find my footing just to fall, and
 Wine with dinner, I talk, but I don't say
 How I been feelin'
 How I been feelin' about (hey)
 All of these feelings
 Or do you want me now?
 How I been feelin'
 Pretendin' I'm dealin' without (hey)
 But I ain't feelin'
 Or do you want me out? (Ha)
 Now, voice, I don't need you to crack
 No tellin' what you might say that I can't take back
 And I don't think I can open up the door
 I'm afraid to give a voice to what I'm wanting for
 So I don't, or I can't, or I won't
 But it's like I'm goin' crazy thinkin' about, mm
 How I been feelin'
 How I been feelin' about (hey)
 All of these feelings
 Or do you want me now?
 How I been feelin'
 Pretendin' I'm dealin' without (hey)
 But I ain't feelin'
 Or do you want me out? (Ha)