Dying Alive

The growing darkness before and beside
 It feels so helpless, I can't even cry
 All I remember is graveyard soil
 The veil of nightmare turns blood into oil
 Screaming from cold grave — but no one hears me
 I am alive here — no one believes me
 I prayed for death — she couldn't find me
 Dying alive — my only nightmare
 I caged in coffin as child of the beast
 These walls embraced me, I feel how they squeeze
 So comprehensive this darkness in me
 The time is endless when I'm not exist
 Denial and acceptance
 Do I deserve this sentence?
 I refuse to understand
 No beginning where is no end
 Forgiving and redemption
 No hope for resurrection
 Beneath the graveyard ground
 The fear is all I found
 I regret that I lived my past
 Saddest time that is gone so fast
 But I'll always remember you — so beautiful
 You were beautiful