sickminded

When did I get lost
 I'm losing sight and I can't stop
 Reflecting all the doubt
 And I'm blaming everyone else
 I've been pushing out and shutting down
 The ones who been looking out
 If I let them in to see
 They'll look at me so differently
 I have to take control to find out
 The moment I went wrong and hide out
 If the worst is yet to come so right now
 I sit here in silence
 Afraid that I might be giving up
 I still don't understand
 Why they stick around, why they give a fuck
 Everything I've said
 Just makes it worse and I push my luck
 In time I will come around (come around)
 And I'll see the sun if I don't drown (don't drown)
 So many apologies I lose count
 Waiting for the day we just sit back and laugh it out
 Don't wanna be damaged
 Don't wanna be worthless
 So, I'm never losing sight
 I have to take control to find out
 The moment I went wrong and hide out
 If the worst is yet to come so right now
 I sit here in silence
 Afraid that I might be giving up
 (Whoa... No... I'm giving...)
 Say we're fine, say in once, I just gotta hear it
 Paranoia is taking over, I know I can feel it
 And I wanna close my eyes
 Always trouble to my left so I'm looking to my right, uh
 And it don't matter cause it comes where I go
 When I'm home in New York or London and Tokyo
 And trust me I can't explain it or let alone contain it
 I'm giving up on me and I didn't write this just for entertainment
 I have to take control to find out
 The moment I went wrong and hide out
 If the worst is yet to come so right now
 I sit here in silence
 Afraid that I might be giving up
 I'm giving up
 Afraid that I might be giving up
 I'm giving up
 I might be giving up