The Miracle

I sailed forever, I sailed so far, and now I know just what the consequences are
 I laughed out loudly, while I cried inside
 But I didn't have the streigth to say enough of this ride
 Like a fool - I believed in a miracle
 I wanted to forget, of what I'm not sure
 But I found an answer - it seemed to be a perfect cure
 Controlled my actions, controlled my thoughts
 Controlled my feelings, and now I feel my body rot - like a fool
 I believed in the miracle
 Twisted and I'm running - freezed then I'm burning
 Laughing then I'm crying - am I living or am I dying
 Swearing then I'm praying - don't even know what I'm saying
 Happy then so sad - forgiven then so mad
 Do you still, do you still believe, do you still believe in, do you still believe in miracles?
 Pushing then pulling - who am I fooling
 A friend then a foe - do I really even know?
 Love and then hate
 Peace then at war - but what am I fighting for
 And you always try to
 Keep me - oh so sleepy
 So I can't realise - that it's all lies
 And the more it takes hold on me - the less chance that I'll ever be free
 And even though I don't believe - it's so hard to leave - a miracle - a miracle
 Waiting - always hesitating - for the perfect day - that day was yesterday
 And the more you're gonna wait - the more of chance that it will be too late
 How can you afford to wait, you just can't afford to wait
 I shed a tear I won't deny it, but just one tear and I already cried it
 And now you'll see me cry no more, don't even know what I was crying for