How Will I Laugh Tomorrow - Heavy Emotion Version

Here I sit and watch my world come crumbling down (Crumbling down)
 I cry for help but no one's around
 Silently screaming as I bang my head against the wall (Against the wall)
 It seems like no one cares at all
 Always an emotion, but how can I explain; how can I explain?
 Kind of like the scent of a rose, with words I can't explain, the same with my pain
 Caught up in emotion, goes over my head; (Goes over my head)
 Sometimes I got to think to myself is this life or death, am I living or am I...
 The clock keeps ticking, but nothing else seems to change (Seems to change)
 Problems never solved, just rearranged
 And then I think about all the times that I've had (That I've had)
 Some were good...
 I search for personality. I look for things I couldn't see
 Peace and love flash through my mind but - pain and hate is all I ever would find
 Find no hope in nothing new and I never ever had a dream come true
 Lies and hate and agony; through my eyes that's all I see
 If I'm gonna cry, will you wipe away my tears?
 And if I'm gonna die, Lord please take away my fear
 Before I drown in sorrow, Well I just want to say;
 How will I laugh tomorrow, when I can't even smile today
 Today (today) today; when I can't even smile today
 Today (today) today; when I can't even smile today
 Today (today) today; when I can't even smile today
 Today (today) today; when I can't even smile today
 You think something's funny...
 If you wanna laugh... why don't you laugh at this?
 So when I look outside my room
 I see the world, but not the reason
 What is done to me is not fair
 You call it fair I call it treason
 But I know not what to do
 Give me a sign I'll take whatever
 But if you want me here I am
 Ain't gonna die forever
 And I tried to hold ya
 But you just turned away
 And I tried to tell ya
 But not a word I say
 I cried out so loudly
 But you just covered your ears
 I gave you all the signs,
 but you ignored my tears
 So if you want me here I am
 I sit here waiting for your decision
 But my body fights my mind
 I headed straight for a collision
 So am I getting near or am I still
 Looking in all the wrong places
 But the only thing that seems to change
 Are the looks on the faces...
 And I try to hold ya
 And I try to tell ya
 And I gotta...
 And I gotta, and I gotta, and I gotta, and I gotta, and I gotta, and I gotta, and I gotta,
 Gotta, gotta, gotta, gotta, gotta, gotta, gotta
 How will I laugh tomorrow? (How will I, How will I, How will I)
 How will I laugh tomorrow? (How will I, How will I, How will I)
 How will I laugh tomorrow? (How will I, How will I, How will I)
 How will I laugh tomorrow? (How will I, How will I, How will I)
 When I can't even smile
 Can't even smile
 I can't even smile today
 When I can't even smile
 Can't even smile
 I can't even – I can't even smile today
 Smile today
 But I can't even smile
 How will I laugh tomorrow?
 Doesn't anyone... It seems like no one cares at all
 Doesn't anyone even care at all
 It seems like no one cares at all
 Doesn't anyone even care at all
 It seems like no one cares at all
 How will I laugh tomorrow?
 How will I laugh tomorrow?
 How will I laugh tomorrow?
 How will I laugh tomorrow?
 When I can't even smile today
 Today (today) today; when I can't even smile today
 Today (today) today; when I can't even smile today
 Today (today) today; when I can't even smile today
 Today (today) today; when I can't even smile today