Pretty Pathetic

You should have heard me sobbing
 As I drove home that night
 Got into bed and stayed there
 For days I just laid there
 Having been permanently changed
 But we won't get into that now
 Let's take it from the start
 You should have seen me smiling
 Like the world was mine
 She used to call me baby
 Softly, sometimes
 But if I dwell on those days too long
 I feel like my life is over
 And that's no good
 So let's move on
 To the part where I begin to sense
 Her distance
 I panic and hold on tighter
 But that makes it worse
 How am I supposed to take it
 When she said:
 "This is something I'm going through,
 It's got nothing to do with you"
 I had a special evening all planned out
 Desperately determined to reignite
 Some spark between us
 She had to feel something for me
 A love as strong as ours
 Doesn't just go away
 You can't just turn it off
 Unless she was lying all those times
 But I don't think so
 I really don't think so
 The way she used to look at me
 Made me a thousand feet high
 The meaning of the word cool
 Not the same geek
 Who fumbled through his words that night
 The ugliest night
 I said some pretty awkward things
 I got the feeling that she felt sorry for me
 I should have seen it was hopeless and left it alone
 But I had to go on embarrassing myself
 "I miss what we had I need you so badly,
 I miss what we had I need you so badly"
 I must have sounded pretty pathetic, I know
 That's why I don't blame her for what she said
 But listen to me rambling
 We don't know each other that well
 But you're so easy to talk to
 I feel like I can tell you almost anything
 I hope I haven't put you off
 I have a tendency to do that
 Why don't I just be quiet?