Delusional

I cry in restaurants and not because I dine alone
 I have a theraplst to clarify what I already know
 I tell myself I'm quirky and that no one gets me
 As my mental health deteriorates before me slowly
 I'm delusional (but I hide it nicely)
 But I don't know (how far it'll get me)
 When my world starts crumbling down I leave my body all together
 And return when things get better
 I leave the light on at night because I'm afraid of ghost
 Only ironically as far as anybody knows
 I lie about things that sound worse than the actual truth
 I think I'm fine while everybody worries what I will do
 I'm delusional (but I hide it nicely)
 But I don't know (how far it'll get me)
 When my world starts crumbling down I leave my body all together
 And return when things get better
 I won't be gone long
 If it's urgent you can medicate me back home
 I'll try to stay for you, but the world is too cruel
 I'm delusional (but I hide it nicely)
 But I don't know (how far it'll get me)
 When my world starts crumbling down I leave my body all together
 And return when things get better