Sirens

See me go back and forth
 This is not self control
 Trapped in a mild state
 Settled in my old ways
 Never been here I'm sure
 Never this far before
 Even though I'm unsafe
 Oddly I'm not afraid
 Then I go on and cave
 How do I speak to me
 Only in harsher tones
 Only so I can't breath
 I do this to myself
 Speaking in secrets I can't tell
 Put it all on the edge
 Picking it up I fell
 Butterflies die when I cover my eyes
 You poured salt on the cuts on my mind
 Tongue full of venom in these summertime nights
 Jump from a edifice what if I fly?
 Yea I been drifting off, in a fog, centers synagogue
 Listening to inner gods telling me I'm different
 Like a demagogue, I don't want to interrupt
 Cinema in the cuts, indicas inhale in my crystal lungs
 'Til it looks like an evergreen's inside me
 Seasonal leaves seem to redefine me
 They deify things I leave behind
 Sing in minor keys I don't see the irony
 Iron lung but my teeth are ivory
 Mama says that she thinks I'm out of reach
 Girlfriend says she don't see that side of me
 I don't say shit I just keep it silent
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 The sunset on Sunset's peach and violet
 No more blood-letting when the leeches bite me
 One more love letter 'fore the creatures find us
 I'll show you the shadows that my secrets hide in
 Take what they need then they leave you lifeless
 A chrysalis lives so deep inside you
 Below the surface where demons riot
 A broken person grows so subversive
 Choke on words so the screams are quiet
 Can't hear the sirens though they keep their eye on me
 Maybe one day I'll learn to cease my fire
 I hope you're still there when I seek asylum
 Here I am back again
 Silhouette of a shell I am
 Still in a darkened place
 Fighting another hell I am
 Something here hurts my head
 Something here leaves me strange
 Nothing can hold me back
 No one here knows my name
 Then I go on and cave
 How do I speak to me
 Only in harsher tones
 Only so I can't breathe
 I do this to myself
 Speaking in secrets I can't tell
 Put it all on the edge
 Picking it up I fell