my feelings are hiding

You used to say you're never leaving, now I'm wondering why
 Am I so different from the rest? You said my smile is nice
 You said "I'm right there when you need me" and I'm everything you like
 I know you're not telling the truth, you look away when you lie
 There's a part of me that's broken, but it's easier to laugh
 So I'ma hide all my feelings, I mean nobody asked
 I can't remember feelin' safe, I think security's a myth
 I can't remember feeling me, I guess it is what it is
 You saved my life (You saved my life)
 You're dead inside
 And not who you used to be
 You're more like a memory
 You saved my life (You saved my life)
 At least you tried
 You lost almost everything
 Now the codependency is killing me
 You used to say you were in love
 But not with me, drugs
 You spent more time on getting fried, on getting high
 I felt like you were giving up (Fuck it)
 I guess you get what you deserve, I guess I'm good at getting hurt
 I never knew what I was worth, I wish I knew it wouldn't work
 I wish you didn't up and vanish, when you did I wish I learnt
 Certain people leave you sick, you end up searching for a cure
 You saved my life (You saved my life)
 You're dead inside
 And not who you used to be
 You're more like a memory
 You saved my life (You saved my life)
 At least you tried
 You lost almost everything
 Now the codependency is killing me