emails i can’t send

It's times like these, wish I had a time machine
 So I could see what you did October 13th
 At 10:15, were you really asleep?
 Were you lying to me and the family?
 There's no us in us when I'm lacking trust
 You wanna discuss, ugh, you disgust me
 Don't make me cuss you out
 Why'd you let me down? Don't say sorry now
 And thanks to you, I, I can't love right
 I get nice guys and villainize them
 Read their texts like they're having sex right now
 Scared I'll find out that it's true
 And if I do, then I blame you for every worst that I assume
 When I'm 45, someone calls me their wife
 And he fucks our lives in one selfish night
 Don't think I'll find forgiveness as fast as mom did
 And God, I love you, but you're such a dipshit
 Please, fucking fix this
 'Cause you were all I looked up to
 Now I can't even look at you
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 (You too) I mean, as they say in "Chicago" (yeah)
 "He had it coming"