Never Had The Balls

I was lost, felt nothing at all but
 I'm coming back now, yeah, I'm in the background
 No need to react now that everything's done (but let me say)
 I thought it would be simple enough
 And I had to grow up
 Just to learn all the ways that it's not
 But I never thought that I'd wanna call it quits in my whole life
 I never aimed to feel confused, I blame myself to tell the truth
 But now I know that everything's hard when you're living in the dark
 And you don't even wanna see it through
 If that had to be the way I'd be feeling for days
 And I knew it back then, I probably wouldn't do it
 But I never got the chance to tell you
 
 I never had the balls to tell you
 No, I never had the balls to tell you
 I did everything that I could, but still, I was helpless (so helpless)
 I shouldn't waste my precious time
 On anybody living off of mine
 And now I know that things are getting better
 I can live like this forever
 Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
 When I found my own way out
 Was to open my mouth and be honest
 I had to go and do it, yeah
 "This could be the best decision that you ever make
 Please, don't be afraid", she reassures me
 I know it's hard to play pretend
 I promise you it's due to end
 And winners never quit, you know, so quitters never win
 (It's only getting better now for you)
 
 I'm your man if you're looking for good times
 Feel amazing and I'm on my way home
 Yeah, I'm finally in the zone
 I heard the word "goodbye" and felt surprised
 That I wasn't even sad in the slightest
 My mind was made up, but if I had to live a life
 Only being polite, I'd be giving in
 I'm never gonna do it
 I'll never get the chance to tell you
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 I never had the balls to tell you
 No, I never had the balls to tell you now
 
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 Balls to tell you
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 Balls to tell you
 I never got the chance to tell you (no)
 Never had the balls to tell you
 Balls to tell you
 But I never got the chance to tell you (no)
 Never had the balls to tell you (I didn't)
 Balls to tell you