It's Not The Same Anymore

I'll keep the pictures saved in a safe place
 Wow, I look so weird here
 My face has changed now
 It's a big shame
 So many feelings, struggling to leave my mouth
 And it's not that rare for me to let myself down
 In a big way
 But I had enough time and I found enough reason to accept that
 It's not the same anymore
 I lost the joy in my face
 My life was simple before
 I should be happy, of course
 But things just got much harder
 Now it's just hard to ignore
 It's not the same anymore
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 It's not the same anymore
 It's not the same, but, it's not a shame 'cause
 I spend a long time putting up with people
 Putting on my best face
 It's only normal when you stop things in the wrong way
 It's only four o'clock and still, it's been a long day
 I just wanna hit the hay
 People knocking on me like every day
 I'm tired of taking stress
 If only there could be another way
 I'm tired of feeling suppressed
 And when they want me the most
 I'm tired of acting like I care, but I do
 And I can't wait to hit the bed
 But tomorrow makes me scared
 'Cause it's not the same anymore
 I lost the joy in my face
 My life was simple before
 I should be happy, of course (of course)
 But things just got much harder
 Now it's just hard to ignore
 It's not the same anymore (it's not the same)
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 It's not the same anymore (it's not the same)
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 I kept the feelings inside
 I open up when shit gets built up this high
 She makes it easy to cry
 The words fall out of me and there's no more disguise
 I miss the days when I was someone else
 I used to be so hungry
 Right now, my stomach's full of air
 And I've spent many months just hating on myself
 I can't keep wishing things will be different
 Or leaving problems on the shelf
 I wish I didn't need to get help
 But I do
 But I do
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 I've been so hard on myself, yeah
 Even my family can tell
 And they barely saw what I felt
 I wouldn't wish this on my enemy or anyone else
 It's not the same
 (It's not the same)
 (It's not the same)
 It's not the same as before
 It's not the same anymore
 And it's fine because
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 I've learned so much from before
 Now I'm not sure on advice
 There's no excuses at all
 No point in feeling upset
 Won't take my place on my floor
 I'll stand up straight like I'm tall
 It's up to me, no one else
 I'm doing this for myself
 It's not the same anymore
 It's better
 It got better
 It's not the same anymore
 It's better
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 Yeah, yeah