The Fullness of Time: IV. Transcendence

[I. Rage:]
 Struck down by the persons that I trusted
 Robbed of dignity and left for dead
 I can feel unmeasurable anger building in me
 Emptiness and rage begin to burn inside my head
 Once I was a person withoug malice
 Once my heart bled red instead of black
 Friends with one hand held behind their backs carried knives
 Didn't see the blades 'till tehy were buried in my back
 Sleep with one eye open
 Knowing that I'm watching you
 Listen for my footsteps on every darkened street
 Like a call for help unanswered
 You can scream but no one hears your voice
 No one there to save you
 As I take my just revenge
 I can hear your laughter
 I can see you think you've won
 But I don't know how you live
 With no remorse for waht you have done
 You claimed you were my friend
 All the while you planned to murder me
 You claimed that I imagined all the things you'd done to me
 You'll pay for being so destructive
 Youll beg for compassion
 But I've nothing left to give
 [II. Despair:]
 Left now
 Alone with your betrayal
 There's no way to feel secure
 Anymore
 Broken
 Crushed in soul and spirit
 With no way to set things right again
 Gone
 You have stolen everything I ever had
 And I'm left with nothing more than pain
 And I know I'll never trust the way taht I once did
 You have taken all my dreams
 And turned them to ashes in my mouth
 Starving
 Searching for some comfort
 Left to choke on my despair
 Blinded
 My faith and friendship shattered
 And my life beyond repair
 [III. Release:]
 Lying here surrounded
 By the pieces of my life
 Would it all be easier
 If I lay be down to die
 Dreams piled high
 On the back of this broken man
 Is this all? Born to fall?
 Or to rise again?
 So much pain and disillusionment
 Everything I once felt sure about
 We're all lost if we don't know
 It's all a game that we are playing
 The motions of all our counterparts
 A piece of sinsiter scheme
 The puppet that's broken has reason to smile
 They can no longer force him to dance on their strings
 Why shrug off the chains? If you wrap them about
 You'll be sunk to the bottom and drowning
 The clockwork behind their smiles
 Wound by hands that were made to harm
 Just release yourself
 Cause they can't rape the willing
 Or take waht you have if there's nothing else
 Tired of life and filled with despair
 And covered with blood from the crosses I bear
 But I'm still standing
 SHould I make myself crawl?
 Seems so counter to our nature
 Accepting with grace the things we can't change
 But when all's said and done and you're wronged and deceived
 Then it matters tha most what you choose to believe
 Should I fight against fate
 Or should I just lay down and die?
 The puppet that's broken has reason to smile
 But the strings can't control you if you walk away
 No more tears of disillusionment
 I'l be a puppet no longer
 The hands that I thought had held me
 THe clockwork behind their smiles
 They'll not have control over me
 I'll stand up and leave them behind
 Just release yourself
 Cause they can't rape the willing
 Or take what you have if there's nothing else
 Tired of life and filled with despair
 And covered with blood from the crosses I bear
 But I'm still standing
 Should I make myself crawl?
 Just release yourelf
 When you're wounded by no one else
 Rise above pain, most past my despair
 And put down the cross that I've made myself bear
 Now I'm still standing
 And I'm not gonna crawl
 [IV. Transcendence:]
 Now
 The smoke finally cleared
 And I can see the wreckagae of my past that lies about me
 Now
 It's all become so clear
 And I have learned the
 Truth behind the lies and seen the lies within the truth
 Everythng in context finally makes sense
 I see the paths I walked
 Some I paved myself
 Some where I went gladly
 Some against my will
 I
 Can leave behind the fear and doubt
 And cast aside the shackles and the chains
 Of flawed assumptions I learned as a child
 I can't let them distract me
 So I'm Putting aside the memories
 Of the things I never had but thought I wnated
 Now
 My notions of what makes relationships have a new light
 I have gained an understanding
 No more false facades
 Covering my feelings
 Preventing a connection
 I've been spending my whole life pursuoing those who built this cell
 Lamenting all the hateful things that happened to me
 Never thought to look at how I might have played a part in who I am
 Or what it means to lose the game before it starts
 Now I know that I cannot turn back and change the past
 And that the only choice to save myself
 Is changing what I carry from it
 Everything I did to myself
 Everything that's been done to me
 I'll turn my back on that and walk away
 And left with only me
 At last I see the answer and what I need to be
 Letting go
 I destroy my shell
 Embrace my heart
 And free myself
 The point of the search, may not be the answer
 The value of a want, is not always a need
 Still I stand, I'm not going to crawl
 Now I know, I've got to believe
 Once I was a person without malice
 Once my heart bled red instead of black
 Openness and introspection now sho me the way
 To reclaim all I've lost and take it back
 You may have taken everything I ever had
 But you cannot take my future
 Just release yourself
 All I was and
 All that I'll ever be
 Finally are integrated
 And I am whole again
 Now I know the reason for the suffering
 I'm a better person for having known the pain
 A better person having overcome the pain