Scarred

Scarred
 I am scarred from the actions of others
 I am scarred from the actions of self
 I am scarred by the times
 That I held back the storm
 With no one to turn to
 Nobody else
 I have risen beyond what I used to be
 I have fought hard to gain what I lacked
 But I stil hear the footsteps
 Of my failures on my heels
 And everything I thought Ieft behind Is clinging to my back
 I've made myself a fortress
 In pursuit of all my dreams
 But it's built upon my self doubt
 And more fragile than it seems
 I can struggle to forget
 That I've always felt alone
 But the consequence
 Of standing on my own
 I've been broken
 Nothing can make me whole again
 I've been fighting
 Battles that can't be won
 Drowning in a sea of self-hate
 Searching for an answer that never was
 I've spent half of my life trying to kill my demons
 And I'm frightened that the process
 May have turned me into one of them
 I've looked into the darkness of my personal abyss
 But I feel it staring back
 And it sees right through me
 I am beaten but unbroken
 I am bloodied but unbowed
 And these years have left me shattered
 But I'll make it through somehow
 I think that's probably why
 I've been alone all my life
 I think that's probably why
 I am lost and I'm scared that I can't find my way
 I've spent half of my life trying to kill my demons
 And I'm frightened that the process
 May have turned me into one of them
 I've looked into the darkness of my personal abyss
 But I feel it staring back
 And it sees right through me
 Now I struggle to forget
 That I've always felt alone
 And I can't escape the consequence
 Of being on my own
 I've been broken
 Nothing can make me whole again
 I've been fighting
 Battles that can't be won
 I've been tortured
 Shaped into what I am
 Scars I've hidden
 Through my entiore life
 Searching for what
 Never was
 Drowning in an
 Endless sea of doubt