Wondering (How To Believe)

We're al- we're all wondering, how to believe
 I'm wondering about the horrors in the world that we witness
 And what's the purpose of our babies being born into sickness
 My cold world of stalactites and spikes of icicles
 In a house of disease and handicap blind cripples
 I watched half my family die, the shit we been through
 I lost my brother, my sister, my cousin, my nephew
 I watched the hearse come when my sister lost her first son
 The tragedies in life are the lessons that we learn from
 We're all wondering (Yeah)
 How to believe (How to believe)
 We're all wondering
 How to believe
 We're all won
 A freshman girl named Jenny had a school crush
 She hit up his Facebook She finally got the guts
 To her surprise he replied and he asked to meet up
 And he was fast hands all on her she couldn't keep up(We're all won)
 She said slow down he said no way it's about to go down
 Jenny tried to push him off he shoved her to the ground
 She tried to bite him and fight him with nowhere to run, hide
 He overpowered her and pounded and thrusted inside
 He busted inside tonight a piece of Jennifer died
 When he was done she walked away as she stumbled and cried
 Don't want the papers to name her or a neighborhood to shame her
 She didn't tell her parents she was scared that they would blame her
 A month went by depression and self-hatred
 Seeing flashbacks of being forcefully penetrated
 The face of the rapist in her brain she can't take it
 Looking through a drawer for a razorblade
 But not to shave with (We're all won-won-won)
 Her blood leaked down the sink faucet
 Her life ended still the rape was never reported
 That's why the rapist coward was never outed
 In fact he remained free and even bragged about it
 Told his friends about this hot fling with this hot thing
 Around town he was the man, the school jock, prom king
 The nerve with him, woman in town they worshipped him
 The worst part is that Jenny was only his first Victim
 We're all wondering
 How to believe (How to believe)
 We're all wondering (Yeah, yeah)
 How to believe (How to believe)
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 Now our parents are pill popping unapologetic and
 The neighborhoods are infested, the heroin epidemic
 And little Eric started cutting classes and then the
 Heroin entered his bloodstream through his nasal passage
 And every time his mom looked inside his eyes she would cry
 Beady eyed, pupils small, nose runny, mouth dry
 Picking scabs off his body everyday getting high
 Glory of the euphoria nausea when it's missing
 No Resistin' the itchin' for a fixin' of the addiction
 His momma looking through his baby pictures and reminiscin'
 So his mom got him rehab, it got him sober
 He went back to high school tryin' to get his diploma
 It appeared this nightmare might be finally over
 Then he sniffed a bad batch and He fell into a coma
 Six months in a vegetative state no closure
 Complications in his lungs then he died from Pneumonia
 Mommas baby boy born innocent and wholesome
 Used to change his diapers and breastfeed him and hold him
 She reminisce of little league when Eric hit a home run
 Why should a mother have to live to bury her own son I'm wondering
 We're all wondering
 How to believe (How to believe)
 We're all wondering (Yeah, yeah)
 How to believe (Yeah)
 We're all wondering
 How to believe (How to believe)
 We're all won