Spill Me

My back so full of scrapes
 With the miles I've walked of waste
 Fade and fall away against
 Numb my hunger to taste
 What's the basis for change
 Excuses to feed my ego's rage
 Cling to my comfort to clench
 Content with my sadistic wrench
 Find every reason not to kill
 The half way beast that steals my only peace
 And don't expect it to rest till it's home
 Is a naturalistic nest
 My back so full of scrapes
 (With another wound)
 And the miles I've walked of waste
 (With another scar)
 Fade and fall away against
 (With another scratch)
 Numb my hunger to taste
 But there is no coincidence
 And there is no compromise
 Rise
 Close my grip on the floodgates
 And lean on the back of the covenant
 Sealed in dreams
 Anticipate the backlash
 Uncountable grins fade to screams
 Doubts an ocean away on a sea
 That my last mistake drowned unwillingly
 And I don't have the trust to float inside
 The waves that seek to spill me
 Rise
 Unrealistic ideals
 Promises I can't keep
 I don't have those luxuries
 And I don't have the time you do to sleep
 And now it starts
 And now it begins
 I've waited too long for this
 For your fear to interfere again
 So now my vision's secured