Glutton for Punishment

Gorged with questions so I can't decide
 It's like I've got to get my share just to stay alive
 Seems so useless trying to make believe
 Who the hell am I, it's myself I deceive?
 My stomach is full with unbelievable guilt
 Cannot describe what diverts my will
 Hungry for the thing that stunts my growth
 I can't say yes, I can't say no
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 Meal of indecision
 Something I can't digest
 Eat myself to pieces
 By punishment I am possessed
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 No one understands this selfless fear
 They're blind to what I see so clear
 With this vision I witness those who die
 Can't control this raging appetite
 Torn between pity and greed
 Rotten muscle, my teeth will sink
 Burdens I'd deny and leave unfed
 Yet saving myself brings on my own bloodshed
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 Consuming that which consumes me
 To the point my body's filled
 Erratically glut like an animal
 And carelessly escape has spilled
 Always forced into my throat
 Never a chance to fast
 Bloated with a blistering
 Each bite I pray to be my last
 Gorged with questions so I can't decide
 It's like I've got to get my share just to stay alive
 Seems so useless trying to make believe
 Who the hell am I, it's myself I deceive?
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 Meal of indecision
 Something I can't digest
 Eat myself to pieces
 By punishment I am possessed