trail of tears

Some of mine's touched my Mother plan
 Remember times I put the dice in another hand
 Something light for my brother man
 For all the times we had to hype the mission wasn't planned
 To try and tell you 'bout them nights, you wouldn't understand
 'Cuz we was really shootin' high and hopin' something land
 In July was feelin' numb again
 Remember cryin' tried to diet from these substances
 Too precise but the price of me was plummeting
 It took some dropping at the highest it was nothin' near
 I feel the fire overcoming fear
 Alone is lighter, I know prior I had one to care
 Them ain't ties, you niggas wired to the puppeteer
 Big Mike know the guy behind a bunch of tears
 We still hype we got another year
 You know the feeling, this is nothing near it
 Keep swimming my beloved spirit
 You know your son is near