Closer

Well, I feel so messed up
 I can't get clear
 And I don't know what to do
 'Cause I'm neck deep in fear
 My back feels like it's been holdin' up the weight
 And this house and these three cats
 And my truck filled with crap
 But with every little bang, every little push
 Every little step I take, I get closer
 A second at a time, usin' my breath
 Maybe it's true I've got a fear of success
 But with every little bang, every little push
 Every little step I take, I'm gettin' closer
 I'm gettin' a little bit closer
 This life is not so simple
 No, it ain't just blah, blah, blah
 And I imagine my brain looks like a carousel on fire
 And when I go into hiding, you know to just stay clear
 You get it's not about you, it's just
 Me fightin' me, fightin' me, fightin' me out here
 But with every little bang, every little push
 Every little step I take, I get closer
 A second at a time, usin' my breath
 Maybe it's true I've got a fear of success
 But with every little bang, every little push
 Every little step I take, I'm gettin' closer
 I'm gettin' closer
 And I still can't sit still
 Oh, we're late
 And I'm so tired but I lay here awake
 Wonderin' what you see
 I wonder what it is you get?
 And why am I so lucky?
 'Cause you haven't left me yet
 Oh, you haven't even left me yet
 Why am I so lucky?
 But with every little bang, every little push
 Every little step I take, I get closer
 A second at a time, usin' my breath
 Maybe it's true I've got a fear of success
 But with every little bang, every little push
 Every little step I take, I get closer
 A second at a time, usin' my breath
 Maybe it's true I've got a fear of success
 But with every little bang, every little push
 Every little step I take, I'm gettin' closer
 I'm gettin' closer
 I'm gettin' closer
 I'm gettin' a little bit closer
 I'm gettin' closer