Modafinil Blues

I'm a touch fast
 Though I'll be last
 To play with the heart from the start
 I'll be straight
 The second best boy
 Unless like the rest boy
 I'll stick around in the house of your mind
 At the gate
 And I never thought they'd get to you
 So tell me have they gotten to you, too?
 Did you tell them what they wanted to know?
 Did you show them what I wanted to show, you?
 And it's coming undone
 So I run and I run
 But there's nowhere left worth
 Running to
 It's hopeless at best
 But what do we get?
 A sense of regret which feels like
 Nothing new
 I'm the white ash
 From the smoke stack
 Helplessly floating from embers
 That create
 Troubled at best, boy
 Another decoy
 Dipping my hat to the man
 Fanning the flame
 I never thought they could get you to crack
 So tell me how they got me to crack, you
 Did you really think you could trust
 Such a man with a head full of rust, too?
 As it was coming undone
 I could have told you to run
 But I searched and I yearned for that pill
 To get me through
 And I'm helpless at best
 Equal to the rest
 I'll always forget
 Not to be blue