Everything That Isn't Me

I could have been a better brother
 I could have been a better son
 I'm sorry for the pain I caused you
 And all the worries that I gave you, Mom
 Every time there was a riot
 I couldn't ever stay at home
 I had to run and join the fire
 You and dad said no, but I had to go
 You were still the best of mothers
 And now I know the fear you felt for me
 You told me to stay off the streets 'cause
 You didn't like me out there selling weed
 I don't regret the things I've done
 They made me what I am, you see
 I can't apologize forever
 For everything that isn't me
 I could have been a better brother
 I could have been a better friend
 I hope you know how much I love you
 And if you don't, I really understand
 I used to be so bloody selfish
 I tried to make it to the top, you see
 The only thing I didn't get is
 You've always given me the help I need
 I should have been a better brother
 It's easy now to see it clear
 I'm sorry that I hurt you all and
 I'm sorry that I caused you all so many tears
 I could apologize forever
 For everything I couldn't be
 I can't apologize forever
 For everything that isn't me
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 I could have been a better lover
 I could have been a better man
 I'm sorry that I work so much and
 The fact that I never really have a plan
 I'm sorry, oh, I'm so sorry
 That it's so hard to say this word
 And even with all the things we've been through
 Sometimes I think that I will never learn
 I could have been a better lover
 I could have been a better man
 I'm gonna be a better father
 Hell, I'm doing everything I can
 And I will live with this forever
 With everything I couldn't be
 I can't apologize forever
 For everything that isn't me
 I could have been a better brother
 I could have been a better son
 I could have been a better lover
 But in the end, I'm your only one