Payback

Is this how it ends
 Lying in bed, talking to a cheap tape recorder
 Instead of my friends
 In bed with a low grade fever
 They wanted to know, how could I leave you
 I can't tell them that
 It might sound like revenge
 But some things don't need a payback
 Some things are sure, some things you can feel safe about
 Is this how it starts
 I was waiting for my head to clear up
 I thought I was smart, I'd find the answers in time
 But the answers I find aren't what you want to hear
 They're not even close
 But some things don't need a payback
 Some things are sure, some things you can feel safe about
 Some things don't need a clear up
 I remember good things, like the van breaking down
 I sat on your lap in the auto repair
 And you touched my hair
 While the heavy drops rain on the pavement outside
 Don't take revenge
 Just let it lie
 The easiest thing is if you just let it die
 Don't give me a chance
 You don't owe me that
 Don't follow me out
 Unless you're coming for some payback
 But some things don't need a payback
 Some things are sure, some things you can feel safe about
 Some things don't need a clear up
 Why did I leave
 How long did it take
 It could take forever
 But some things don't need a payback
 You got that?