Buy Myself - Marilyn Manson Remix

What do I do to ignore them behind me?
 Do I follow my instincts blindly?
 Do I hide my pride from these bad dreams
 And give in to sad thoughts that are maddening?
 Do I sit here and try to stand it?
 Or do I try to catch them red-handed?
 Do I trust some and get fooled by phoniness,
 Or do I trust nobody and live in loneliness?
 Because I can't hold on when I'm stretched so thin
 I make the right moves but I'm lost within
 I put on my daily façade but then
 I just end up getting hurt again
 By myself (Myself)
 Pre I ask why, but in my mind
 I find I can't rely on myself
 I can't hold on
 To what I want when I'm stretched so thin
 It's all too much to take in
 I can't hold on
 To anything watching everything spin
 With thoughts of failure sinking in
 If I turn my back I'm defenseless
 And to go blindly seems senseless
 If I hide my pride and let it all go on
 Then they'll take from me 'till everything is gone
 If I let them go I'll be outdone
 But if I try to catch them I'll be outrun
 If I'm killed by the questions like a cancer
 Then I'll be buried in the silence of the answer
 Pre How do you think I've lost so much
 I'm so afraid, I'm out of touch
 How do you expect I will know what to do
 When all I know is what you tell me to
 Don't you know
 I can't tell you how to make it go
 No matter what I do, how hard I try
 I can't seem to convince myself why
 I'm stuck on the outside