hope is a dangerous thing for a woman like me to have - but I have it

I was reading Slim Aarons and I got to thinking that I thought
 Maybe I'd get less stressed if I was tested less like
 All of these debutantes
 Smiling for miles in pink dresses and high heels on white yachts
 But I'm not
 Baby, I'm not
 No, I'm not
 That, I'm not
 I've been tearing around in my fucking nightgown
 24/7 Sylvia Plath
 Writing in blood on the walls
 'Cause the ink in my pen don't work in my notepad
 Don't ask if I'm happy, you know that I'm not
 But, at best, I can say I'm not sad
 'Cause hope is a dangerous thing for a woman like me to have
 Hope is a dangerous thing for a woman like me to have
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 I had fifteen-year dances
 Church basement romances, yeah, I've cried
 Spilling my guts with the Bowery Bums
 Is the only love I've ever known
 Except for the stage, which I also call home, when I'm not
 Servin' up God in a burnt coffee pot for the triad
 Hello, it's the most famous woman you know on the iPad
 Calling from beyond the grave, I just wanna say, "Hi, Dad"
 I've been tearing up town in my fucking white gown
 Like a goddamn near sociopath
 Shaking my ass is the only thing that's
 Got this black narcissist off my back
 She couldn't care less, and I never cared more
 So there's no more to say about that
 Except hope is a dangerous thing for a woman like me to have
 Hope is a dangerous thing for a woman with my past
 There's a new revolution, a loud evolution that I saw
 Born of confusion and quiet collusion of which mostly I've known
 A modern day woman with a weak constitution, 'cause I've got
 Monsters still under my bed that I could never fight off
 A gatekeeper carelessly dropping the keys on my nights off
 I've been tearing around in my fucking nightgown
 24/7 Sylvia Plath
 Writing in blood on your walls
 'Cause the ink in my pen don't look good in my pad
 They write that I'm happy, they know that I'm not
 But, at best, you can see I'm not sad
 But hope is a dangerous thing for a woman like me to have
 Hope is a dangerous thing for a woman like me to have
 Hope is a dangerous thing for a woman like me to have
 But I have it
 Yeah, I have it
 Yeah, I have it
 I have