good at being broken

I've been piecing it together but the puzzle's scattered everywhere
 I've been holding onto moments that I should've let just disappear
 I just drove past your apartment, but I know that I'm not welcome here
 I've been caring 'bout someone who doesn't know that I'm no longer there
 I tried my best to let it not take over
 But I'm losing my breath
 I got good at being broken
 I got really damn good at being second best
 I got used to barely coping
 Familiar with pain in the pit of my chest
 I kinda started loving being in the dark
 I lost my way in what I thought it was
 If you let your heart open
 Then prepare, you better prepare to be good at being broken
 I've been tripping over grief, loving pain and holding onto hurt
 I've been reminiscing memories but sometimes that just makes it worse, whoa
 Even when I'm free from falling, I find myself falling back in
 Regret it every single morning
 You find a way under my skin
 I got good at being broken
 I got really damn good at being second best
 I got used to barely coping
 Familiar with pain in the pit of my chest
 I kinda started loving being in the dark
 I lost my way in what I thought it was
 If you let your heart open
 Then prepare, you better prepare to be good at being broken, whoa-whoa
 To be good at being broken, whoa-whoa, whoa-whoa
 I'm so good at being broken
 And it's like no one noticed
 I got good at being broken
 I got really damn good at being second best
 I got used to barely coping
 Familiar with pain in the pit of my chest
 I kinda started loving being in the dark
 I lost my way in what I thought it was (I lost my way)
 If you let your heart open (whoa-whoa)
 Then prepare, you better prepare to be good at being broken, whoa-whoa
 Broken