Secrets (feat. J.R.)

Who do you think you are?
 To take what wasn't yours
 The innocence I once adored
 Was tripped away behind closed doors
 The enemies inside my home
 But who would ever listen to me?
 And all the secrets that you made me keep
 It rains on the window paint
 Darkness surrounding me
 The steps outside my door
 Right now I'm sound asleep
 The door opens slowly
 And I can hear it slightly
 But I don't move or even look to see who it might be
 Someone's next to me
 The weight is on my bed
 The cover's pulling back
 A hand is on my leg
 I want to sneak and peak
 But I just can't seem to let myself
 Is my father checking me?
 I'm nine and I'm often wet myself
 I have no options
 Forgot me grip the even mood
 Supposed to protect but abusing me
 Now I'm so confused
 So many emotions with
 His sweat dripping
 I lay there motionless hoping this night might soon to be over with
 Holding back cries
 My mind is racing
 Closed eyes like I'm not awaken
 I'd rather die than be in this situation
 As he leaves
 I know the secret I buried and hide
 But hiding this secret I just seem to be buried alive
 Who do you think you are?
 To take what wasn't yours
 The innocence I once adored
 Was stripped away behind closed doors
 The enemies inside my home
 But who would ever listen to me?
 And all the secrets that you made me keep
 And it's tearing me apart
 It's tearing me apart
 It's tearing me apart
 It's tearing me apart
 I'm older, on my own now
 I'm grown now
 But the secrets still won't leave me alone now
 Wow I felt my innocence snapped away
 Was living promiscuous really giving myself away?
 Why would I protect you?
 Truth I would hide and cover
 Would anyone believe me?
 How could I tell my mother?
 Confusion turned to sadness
 Sadness led to me stressing
 Stressing led to the anger
 Anger led to depression
 Then I was arrested by a truth that would truly free me
 The gospel gripped my heart
 Shown me how the father see me
 Biblical counseling
 Brothers and sisters in my list
 Help me endure it
 Though it happened, I'll never forget
 But I do have a hope
 That I do truly know
 In heaven every memory will be whitened in snow
 So though I struggle to forgive you
 I fight 'cause I must
 I must forgive you 'cause I know he's forgiven me much
 Who do you think you are?
 To take what wasn't yours
 The innocence I once adored
 Was stripped away behind closed doors
 The enemies inside my home
 But who would ever listen to me?
 And all the secrets that you made me keep
 And it's tearing me apart
 It's tearing me apart
 It's tearing me apart
 It's tearing me apart
 Papa papa
 Why to they come for me?
 Papa papa
 How do I face my fears?