Disgrace

I'm a disgrace, I can't be saved
 I try new things, but I can't change
 I pray forgiveness for my ways
 I wish that you would call me back
 But you left me in the darkness
 I won't be right by your side, I'm not fine
 Left me in the darkness
 I won't be right by your side, I'll be dead
 Feeling fucked up, I cannot escape
 Yeah, I'm on the come up, might be something great
 Yeah, it's finally time for me to make statements
 But if I'm being honest, I hate this
 Yeah, I never wanna speak dishonestly
 Yeah, I never thought I'd see this side of me
 But I've been getting wasted every night
 Can't bare being alive
 I try so hard to numb the pain
 You found yourself, I can't relate
 I sabotage, burn everything
 I don't want this, no
 I'm a disgrace, I can't be saved
 I try new things, but I can't change
 I pray forgiveness for my ways
 I wish that you would call me back
 But you left me in the darkness
 I won't be right by your side, I'm not fine
 Left me in the darkness
 I won't be right by your side, I'll be dead
 Yeah, let down the ones I depend on
 I can't bare this, I might end it all now
 Suicide note for everyone that I sinned on
 Let the water take me tonight
 I try so hard just to please you
 Sometimes I wish I could be you
 Normal life, yeah, I want it right back
 And I might make this my last time now
 I try so hard to numb the pain
 You found yourself, I can't relate
 I sabotage, burn everything
 I don't want this, no
 I'm a disgrace, I can't be saved
 I try new things, but I can't change
 I pray forgiveness for my ways
 I wish that you would call me back
 But you left me in the darkness
 I won't be right by your side, I'm not fine
 Left me in the darkness
 I won't be right by your side, I'll be dead