The Contractor

I made
 Heavy what was light
 Was looking for a fight
 To give creedence to my crimes
 I miss you
 The boys and my friends
 Sierra Nevada winds
 And ponderosa pines
 Now debt
 Holds me like regret
 Keeps me from moving yet
 Still I find dumb things to buy
 Every time
 You'd make a desperate pitch
 You said in love we were rich
 We were laughing and crying
 Sure being alone is fine
 But I can't cross that bridge when I arrive
 After the years that passed on by
 Do I cross your mind?
 Do I cross your mind?
 Do I ever cross your mind?
 Three
 Weeks of living clean
 But what he really means
 Is not one knows he's using
 I was
 A skeleton crew
 Did the least I could do
 To keep the vessel floating
 I have this problem quirk
 I always have to work
 Or else it's you I see
 One day
 My breath will join the wind
 I'll cease to have been
 'Cept in what I build and bury
 Do I ever cross your mind?