Marcus' gospel

I done lost myself again
 I done lost myself in sin
 I've been burned by selfish men
 I've been died but held it in
 I do not want hell to win
 Life's cold, I done felt the wind
 Could it be any clearer? When I look in the mirror
 I just see a jackass with a tail to pin
 Me and my family ain't close
 So I got some fame and went ghost
 I am not paintin' a hoax
 You can hear the pain in my flows
 They say that life has its ups and downs
 But why do I stay in the lows?
 I don't like Marcus, I don't like Hopsin
 I am ashamed of them both
 You see, all that I have is my money
 I had no idea that this was coming
 I fell into the stereotype of a rapper
 I'm how they package a dummy
 This is my reality, I embrace
 I look back and I can see my mistakes
 I just wish that I could rewind the days
 I honestly don't want to be out of place
 I guess we gotta face
 All these issues like this as a human, sometimes
 Yes, I am losin' my mind
 If you ever come to that conclusion, it's fine
 Don't ignore all of the proof and the signs
 I made my bed, I'ma lay in it
 The thought is as soothin' as wine
 Now all need is a suit and a tie, I tried
 In my lowest times
 I have failed to see (ooh)
 Sunny days are waiting
 I'm in need of some company (ooh)
 God, please help this pain
 'Cause I don't wanna ever see (ooh)
 This lonely road again (this lonely road again)
 Take it away, I want the peace, I want the happiness
 I took a blindfolded shot, it was accurate
 But in my heart I know I never asked for this
 See, this life I'm in, it seem miraculous
 Who knew I'd break a few bones when I tackled it?
 It's been years and I still can't adapt to it
 I cannot predict what my next chapter is
 There's a hearse speedin' fast in the ashes and
 I feel like I lay flat in the back of it
 There's no love in my eyes, so look up in the sky
 Bring me back like you did Lazarus
 I can hear the devil whispering, "Come play!"
 Injecting me softly with numb pain
 My fingers are covered in blood stains
 It's torturing I see in my son's aid
 But one day, that will all change
 When the fog strays, it's a lost page
 That had blown away into the hallways
 In the land where the wild dogs play
 When you're confined into a small space
 You will know that that's enough to cause rage
 I'ma kick until the fuckin' walls break
 I don't know what made me walk straight
 Into this fire, my soul is burnin' quick
 I've been told this isn't permanent
 Growin' up, my father made a lot of mistakes
 I do not know why I didn't learn from his
 Can you direct me to where the furnace is?
 I need to do away with pain that's lurkin' and
 Maybe figure out what my new purpose is
 All these bad vibes are so discouragin'
 In my lowest times
 I have failed to see (ooh)
 Sunny days are waiting
 I'm in need of some company (ooh)
 God, please help this pain
 'Cause I don't wanna ever see (ooh)
 This lonely road again (this lonely road again)
 In my lowest times
 I have failed to see (ooh)
 Sunny days are waiting
 I'm in need of some company (ooh)
 God, please help this pain
 'Cause I don't wanna ever see (ooh)
 This lonely road again (this lonely road again)