Ill Mind of Hopsin 7

It's us, find power
 Live life, mind power
 It's us, find power
 Live life, mind power
 Yo, fuck anybody I might alarm
 Life is a tour, I sit and ride along
 Taking some notes and then I write the song
 I'm staring down the road my life has gone
 Is this where I belong?
 Is it wrong to not believe in right and wrong?
 My mental state is fucking me up
 And I cried a pond while asking you for some answers
 But we don't have that type of bond
 That my desires gone with the way that I've been living lately
 If I died right now, you'd turn the fire on
 Sick of this bullshit, niggas call me a sell-out
 Cause I hopped on Christianity so strongly then I fell out
 Now I'm avoiding questions like a scared dog with his tail down
 Feeling so damn humiliated because they looking at me like I'm hellbound
 What story should I tell now? I'll just expose the truth
 I'm so close to the fucking edge, I should be close to you
 But who the fuck are You? You never showed the proof
 And I'm only fucking human yo, what am I supposed to do?
 There's way too many different religions with vivid descriptions
 Begging all fucking men and women to listen
 I can't even beat my dick without getting convicted
 These ain't wicked decisions, I got different intentions
 I been itching to get it, I've been given assistance
 But the whole fucking system is twisted
 Now I'm dealing with this backlash because Marcus isn't a Christian
 And I've been told that my sinful life is an addiction
 But I can't buy it, it's just too hard to stand beside it
 I need an answer and humans can't provide it
 I look at the Earth and Sun and I can tell a genius man designed it
 It's truly mind blowing, I can't deny it
 Is heaven real? Is it fake? Is it really how I fantasize it?
 Where's the Holy Ghost at? How long it take Man to find it?
 My mind's a nonstop tape playing and I can't rewind it
 You gave me a Bible and expect me not to analyze it?
 I'm frustrated and you provoked it
 I'm not reading that motherfucking book because a human wrote it
 I have a fucking brain, you should know it
 You gave it to me to think to avoid every useless moment
 It was a mission that I had to abort
 Cause humans be lying with such an inaccurate source
 It's gon' be hard to put me back on the course
 Next Jehovah's Witness to come on my porch
 I swear I'm slammin' the door
 A lot of folks believe it though, but I'm not surprised
 Humans are fucking dumb, still thinkin' that Pac's alive
 I ain't trying to take your legacy and torch it down
 I'm just saying: I ain't heard shit from the horse's mouth
 Just sheep always telling stories of older guys
 Who were notarized by you when you finally vocalized
 Now I'm supposed to bow my head and close my eyes
 And somehow let the Holy Ghost arise
 Sound's like a fucking Poltergeist
 Show yourself and then boom it's done
 Every rumor's gone, I no longer doubt this shit, you're the One
 I'll admit that my sinful ways was stupid fun
 And all my old habits can hop onto of a roof to plunge
 I'll donate to a charity that could use the funds
 Fuck the club, instead of bitches I'd hang with a group of nuns
 And everyone that I ran into would know what I came to do
 I wouldn't take a step unless it was in the name of You
 I hate the fact that I have to believe
 You haven't been chatting with me like you did Adam and Eve
 And I ain't seen no fucking talking snake unravel from trees
 With an apple to eat, that shit never happens to me
 I don't know if you do or don't exist, it's driving me crazy
 Send your condolences, this is me reaching to you so don't forget
 If hell is truly your pit of fire and I get thrown in it
 I'mma probably regret the fact that I ever wrote this shit
 My gut feeling says it's all fake, I hate to say it but fuck it, shit I done lost faith
 This isn't a small phase, my perspective's all changed
 My thoughts just keep picking shit apart all day
 And in my mind I make perfect sense
 If you aren't real then all my prayers aren't worth a cent
 That would mean that I could just make up what my purpose is
 And I could just sit in church and say "fuck" in the services
 Man what if Jesus was a facade? Then that would mean the government's god
 I feel like they've been brainwashing us with a lot
 So much that we don't even notice that we're stuck in the box
 Man everything is "what if", why is it always "what if"
 Planet Earth "what if", the universe "what if"
 My sacrifice "what if", my afterlife "what if"
 Every fucking thing that deals with you is fucking suspect
 I'm fucking done, I'm fucking done
 This is my fucking life and I'm living it, I'm having fun
 If you really care for me, prove that I need to live carefully
 But I'll be damned if I put my own pleasure aside for an afterlife that isn't even guaranteed
 We are you, and you're us, stop playing games
 My life's all I got, and heaven is all in my brain
 And when I feel I am in hell, my ideas are what get me through pain
 Do as you please, and I'll just do me, I'm a human, I'll stay in my lane
 Ill mind
 It's us, find power
 Live life, mind power
 It's us, find power
 Live life, mind power