Desires In Conflict

Yea, I wanna tell ya'll this story
 It's a lot of people looking for restoration
 And really searching
 I met an interesting man
 Who confessed some of the struggles within
 Brace yourself cause the struggle is deep
 Cause the struggle is deep
 He wrestles with the very complex thing
 And this is what he said to me
 You don't understand my pain
 You don't understand my secret
 The type of depression I sleep with
 It's been going on
 Every since I was six years old
 My greatest fear is still being exposed
 My emotions cross wires
 Causing a sexual crossfire
 Now I have conflicting desires
 As a distraction
 Same sex attraction
 In my actions and emotional breakdown just like fractions
 See, people even say that I'm wrong
 But people need to leave me alone
 Just check Dateline
 And the news will even show you
 The hate crimes
 I would see God but why waste time
 I'm so embarrassed
 I try to change
 But it just won't work
 I felt ashamed when I stepped in the church
 I feel isolated
 Child of trauma
 I try to forget that while dealing with these struggles and set backs
 I been around
 Man... it's got to be tough man
 I don't know what to say
 I met an interesting woman
 Who confessed some of her struggles within
 Brace yourself cause her struggle is deep (cause her struggle is deep)
 She wrestles with the very complex thing
 And this is what she said to me
 You don't understand my pain
 You don't understand my struggle
 Never hearing a man say that I love you
 Without something in mind
 Yea, I grew up as a classic tomboy
 When I was young I used to clown boys
 It was so funny
 But then the jokes stopped when he grabbed my throat
 And I got raped looked around and there was no pops
 Then I resented and hated men my friends then
 But I never dated men for a long time
 When I did I became promiscuous
 Involved in sexual experiences
 That I shouldn't been
 Never felt feminine til I met a friend
 Who really took the time just to understand
 It became more than a friendship
 One day when her hand slipped
 I tried to change but that's the way that I am
 Please accept me for the way that I am
 Please, I been around
 Wow... that's deep... um
 I don't know
 And when they shared their secrets
 It was very hard to speak
 But I knew they wanted me to respond (they wanted me to respond)
 I closed my eyes and said a prayer to God
 Lord please help me speak your mind
 I don't understand your pain (I don't)
 And I don't and your secrets (I don't)
 The type of depression you sleep with
 But I sympathize
 I really do
 Know it's gotta be hard
 Being you so I try to be true
 And I try to empathize
 But I know that God wants to express a sacredness
 Through opposite sex
 Yes through opposite sex
 For man and woman to become one
 Is the union God wanted to bless
 Yes, He wants to bless
 It paints a picture of His desire for oneness
 With us in a relationship we can be with the Father
 He's always faithful
 He'll never molest or disrespect His sons and daughters
 You can bet on this
 His love is deeper than the ocean floor
 The blood of Jesus is the open door
 To forgive us for our sins
 And He can restore the void in a woman
 And He can restore the men to men from homosexual sin
 See a person's race or ethnicity is sacred
 Our sexuality is sacred as well
 And it's a gift from God
 We don't have the right to do with it what we want to
 God has an original intent
 Just like I can't go off and participate in any type of sexual act that I want to with
 My sexuality pornography premarital sex adultery
 So what is it with our sexuality
 Concerning homo sexuality
 God has established
 The divine order
 And we must follow