Wade Through

a while of littles
 thoughts & moments
 scary weather, but that's alright
 I sweat a little, scatter fears, smile
 she'll be there
 and that's alright
 when I see such a beauty
 I get scared
 water to wade through
 I just stare
 I'm thinking
 talking
 too much about
 whether or not
 it's all right
 I'm going to be scared
 I'm jinxing it
 and jinx it by doing that
 water to wade through
 I'm scared
 I'll invite her in to me
 but where will she stand?
 "do I look okay now?" I ask
 "yea? good. They stay
 there"
 stick figures line sidewalks
 kissing
 licking wounds
 stroking ego
 the, angels all I made demons
 blended faces streaked with come and blood
 rotting limbs I save
 trapped in liquid
 stains on paper
 apart from me then
 but not all the way out
 to exorcise them is wearing
 but there they are staring
 when I see such beauty
 I get scared, so I
 dirty the water then wade through
 wade through dirty then
 dirty water to wade through
 water to wade through dirty