Memorial

I wish you had been at your memorial
 Seeing someone proposing on stage
 I couldn't get through my song for you
 When it came to saying your name
 I can still see the room at the hospital
 Pretty, painted tile
 I can still see your skin turning purple
 Milly of the Nile
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 Can you hear me?
 Did you mean it?
 Did you plan it out?
 Or was it an accident?
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 Time, time up and down the blue screen
 It's dawn and I'm insane
 Love's just a word and not what the word means
 But I'll say it just the same
 Talking to an entity
 Made of endless night
 I dream in TV dialogue
 A world of shadow and light
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 I know it don't work that way
 But maybe you'll come back some day
 I know it don't work like that
 But maybe you can take it back
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 Now that there's no need to say a word
 Can I still make amends?
 But silence, the only kindness I heard
 Forgiveness, the only revenge
 Meeting all of the people
 I've heard of from your past
 Reading through all of your letters
 Looking for your love
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 You told me that love
 Is when someone asks you
 Please leave me alone
 And you really do
 You looked into my eyes
 'Til I was your mother and son
 I tried to look away
 But saw you in everyone
 I wish you had been at your memorial
 Seeing someone proposing on stage