I Hope I’m Wrong

I hope I'm wrong
 I hope you're up there after all
 I keep your diamond ring
 On my necklace
 I don't keep much close to my chest
 Poured a little bourbon out for you
 Got scolded on the porch
 For wasting booze
 Said it was something kids my age do
 Dan got up, poured some too
 Choked up riding in the backseat
 Dad at the wheel staying
 Tough, if you ask me
 He's always at his best when the
 Blade's right up against his neck
 When the shit goes wrong
 Man comes correct
 It gets no better than the way you went
 Money in the bank, sons
 Around your bed
 I know I should feel lucky
 But I'm just feeling spent
 Last thing you said
 Was you'd be
 Watching out for me and
 We both know that I don't believe that
 To be true
 String of beads to me
 Rosary to you
 We were young in different
 Circumstances
 Had the same set of questions
 All different answers
 And if we could've traded places
 Maybe we'd exchange whole lives
 Maybe you'd be here in
 Lights and tears
 And I'd have been the bride
 Raising my kids with my
 Hair swept up and my goals
 Pushed to the side
 Making do singing lullabies
 I hope I'm wrong
 I hope you're up there after all
 I keep your diamond ring
 On my necklace
 I don't keep much close to my chest
 Poured a little bourbon out for you
 Got scolded on the porch
 For wasting booze
 Said it was something kids my age do
 Dan got up, poured some too
 I hope I'm wrong