Toxicity

If I just killed myself right now
 How happy would I be with the lights out?
 Will I remember anything if I died now?
 How toxic would it be if I cry now?
 My ole' girl pretty as she mean, yea
 My ole' girl listens podcast murder scenes, yea
 Every woman like the Audrey wit' the James Dean, yea
 I'm controlling like a bounce on a trampoline
 She fuels me up like a jet mixed wit' kerosene
 I keep it toxic like pollution but the break-ups clean, yea
 Every woman that I love always leaves me
 R.I.P Elzelia Johnson 1943, yea
 If I just killed myself right now
 How happy would I be with the lights out?
 Will I remember anything if I died now?
 How toxic would it be if I cry now?
 If I just killed myself right now
 How happy would I be with the lights out?
 Will I remember anything if I died now?
 How toxic would it be if I cry now?
 Living dormant all this time
 As I watch myself decline
 Pretending I am fine
 But inside I wanna' die
 13 beaches, I remember all the signs
 I remember all my toxic I am paying for the crimes
 Insecurities run rapid
 Like its New York City traffic
 I transformed into a basket case
 Watch how I've adapted
 My ole' girl keeps it toxic but she never keeps her accent
 My girl keeps it logic but she always turns it backwards
 (Turns it backwards)
 If I just killed myself right now
 How happy would I be with the lights out?
 Will I remember anything if I died now?
 How toxic would it be if I cry now?
 If I just killed myself right now
 How happy would I be with the lights out?
 Will I remember anything if I died now?
 How toxic would it be if I cry now?
 If I just killed myself right now
 How happy would I be with the lights out?
 Will I remember anything if I died now?
 How toxic would it be if I cry now?
 If I just killed myself right now
 How happy would I be with the lights out?
 Will I remember anything if I died now?
 How toxic would it be if I cry now?
 She doesn't mind I have a Las Vegas past
 She doesn't mind I have a New York crass
 Way about me
 She loves me
 With every beat of her cocaine heart
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 Taking advice from friends
 Who can't keep a man themselves? Yeah
 Picture yourself's in an open field
 And you see this big bush
 Then the bush catches fire
 You walk up to it
 You light your joint on the fire and inhale
 Let it infold you
 Feel it
 Let it take you where you need to go
 And then you'll get your answer, yeah