Look for the Woman

There's a weight over me today
 Something I have to say
 Love you too much to leave
 Don't like you enough stay
 My head's in a mess and I'm stressed
 But I guess it's a test in this quest for happiness
 and the rest of that mess so I'd best just aquiescue
 Even though I've grown tired of you
 And that ain't meant sound spiteful
 I'm just trying to be insightful
 When I write all my emotions in the night
 All the stuff I try to fight will just come out
 And the sad fact is; I'm so tired of you
 Love, It's a weird thing ain't it?
 There's no way to explain it
 But I swear as well as pain
 There should be joy but we sustain
 the same level of mundane
 And it's numbing me through
 I Often wonder if I'd miss you
 As to have the urge to kiss you
 When an issue has to hit through
 To this heart that now feels disused
 And said issue was to big to just ignore
 And I walked out on you
 But chances are I'd fall apart
 And suffer seizures of the heart
 As my chest begins to smart
 The very second I'd depart
 I want to go back to the start
 But then again, maybe I'd just feel new
 Maybe I'd get my life on track
 and start to focus my attack
 On all the things my life just lacks
 And start to claw my passion back
 Instead of living like hack,
 Half commited, half relaxed
 I'd have nothing to lose.
 There's a weight over me today
 Something I have to say
 Love you too much to leave
 Don't like you enough to stay
 I guess lately I've had to much time to think
 And, yeah, Way to much to drink
 When paper meets the ink
 Overthinking is the chink in my armor
 That's just what I do.
 And I've always been that way
 Forever questioning each day
 And every plea that's made that maybe when I lay my busy mind will make me prove
 by finding problems and reasons that might not even be true
 See, we got togather so young, before our real lives had begun
 but flowers don't grow up as one,
 each finds it's own way to the sun
 And that's exactly what we've done,
 We've grown up seperately too,
 And for a few years now, It's been a problem
 And these realizations, I wish that I could stop them
 But I've realized that love is all we have in common
 And deep down you know that's true.
 But then surely that I'm still in love with you
 Means there's something we can do to get us through and to pursue a brand new poin of view on how this gap grew between me and you
 So There's a weight over me and I'd hate to have to leave
 But in fate I don't believe
 And the state of you and me
 Isn't great as you can see
 So I'll keep thinking this through.
 There's a weight over me today
 It's something I have to say
 Love you too much to leave
 Don't like you enough to stay