Misfit

Oh, sod it, it hurts but I'll reveal the truth
 Sometimes I'd like to curl up and be a recluse
 I mean it, it isn't simply an excuse
 I'm really feeling too weak to deal with you
 Do you see what I've been reduced to?
 A shadow of myself with the bleakest future
 I zone out, open myself
 And only hope someone else knows what I'm about
 It's lonely when you've felt so low you can't help
 But want to go for broke, and throw in the towel
 Go to the cabinet, open the tablets
 Overdose and lay comatose in the bath with the tap running
 That's not what I planned when I had hope though
 I once was the man in the photo
 Laughing with no load on my back and no hassle
 And the path to my happiness, that was still open
 In the past had I known that all that was over
 Perhaps I'd have known how to claw back those years
 I was sober, no drugs, I had a girlfriend
 But now I'm a loner that hopes the world ends
 How did I fall into all this torment
 I never portended this result then
 I wanted four kids, a mortgage, a crib with all the fittings
 But all I'm getting's more bored and morbid
 According to laws of physics actions all cause others
 Yeah? So howcome I don't have some sort of lover?
 It's all just rubbish, all religions and philosophical offerings
 Of knowledge on the source of our suffering
 It's just a thing thought up by people who lie to decieve
 All the world to lie at their feet
 So I'm actually beginning to believe
 That perhaps it's time for me to leave
 Cos I'm a misfit - I'm not an alpha male
 Misfit - my health's too frail
 I'm a misfit - worn out and pale
 Misfit - I'm bound to fail
 I'm a misfit - your inane conversation
 Misfit - puts a strain on my patience
 I'm a misfit - please take me away from all
 Misfit - this pain and frustration
 I'm a misfit
 Do I freak you out with what I speak about?
 Like I'm not even allowed to reveal myself
 Cos it breaches how people seem to chat
 It seems they really don't want to hear the real Dan
 But piss off, I'm just not interested in small talk
 I'd much more discuss thoughts on Bush, war and such
 All the fuss all you fucks all get flustered with football
 Means fuck all to me cos it's just sport, and that's all
 Don't you ever sit and think about the bigger things
 And how to figure things out that aren't just physical?
 The little bit of history we fit into
 How we're writ into it, and what it means to us
 I feel I don't ever belong, what a misfit
 But see, don't get me wrong, I'm not a thick kid
 Cross my fingers, I've got witnesses of this
 I think it's some kind of condition or sickness
 That inhibits my ability to fit in with hip kids
 Sit and sip drinks without feeling ridiculous
 Is there something I've missed, is this all just a trick?
 Can you all just admit that you're being pricks
 For shits and giggles? It itches and niggles
 This list of questions, riddles and things
 That fill my head and inner sense with visions of maliciousness
 With this malevolence I'm stripped of my innocence
 The pinnacle thing beginning my wishlist's
 A vision in which I'm just hindered with less stress
 So if I sink into and addiction and alcoholism
 Can I be forgiven for wishing to skip this
 Abyss of decisions? This piteous pit
 Full of pissy and shit citizens
 Cos if this planet I've seen's the epitome of existence
 Then shit, you can literally sit and spin on it
 I'm a misfit - I'm not an alpha male
 Misfit - my health's too frail
 I'm a misfit - worn out and pale
 Misfit - I'm bound to fail
 I'm a misfit - your inane conversation
 Misfit - puts a strain on my patience
 I'm a misfit - please take me away from all
 Misfit - this pain and frustration
 Cos if this planet I've seen's the epitome of existence
 Then shit, you can literally sit and spin on it