Vows of Redemption

in my darkest days in my fits of rage
 no regard for life all alone in a knife fight
 an inner beast would never let me find peace
 with morbid visions inflicting incisions
 i swore to use my fists til i slashed my wrists
 i welcomed death most nights
 but had to settle my scores right
 all that i could feel was grief and pain
 i desired my destruction - i was going insane
 from the miserable depths of a faded soul
 spilled the vows or redemption - in a world so cold
 before i threw it all away
 i'd make mother fuckers pay
 i wouldn't go out without one last bout
 keep running away - for my soul i pray
 redemption declared - on my soul i swear
 will i ever truly rest in peace?
 my life was a battle that would never cease
 at war with myself my family and friends
 my life my belief the pain never ends
 now its too late to ever make a change
 this negativity has got me fucking deranged
 living this life always felt so strange
 but death is forever burning in flames
 keep running away - for my soul i pray
 redemption declared - on my soul i swear
 no life was wasted 'cause i made my peace
 don't shed no tears for me
 my soul has been released
 enemy to the world myself and all others
 there is no life my sickness smothers
 i feel sometimes like life did me wrong
 seeking revenge since the day i was born
 keep running away - for my soul i pray
 redemption declared - on my soul i swear