When I Was Older

When I was older
 I was a sailor
 On an open sea
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 But now I'm underwater
 And my skin is paler
 Than it should ever be
 Hmm...
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 I'm on my back again
 Dreaming of a time and place
 Where you and I remain the best of friends
 Even after all this ends
 Can we pretend?
 I'm on my, I'm on my back again
 It's seeming more and more like
 All we ever do is see how far it bends
 Before it breaks in half and then
 We bend it back again
 Guess I got caught in the middle of it
 Yes, I've been taught, got a little of it
 In my blood, in my blood
 Memories burn like a forest fire
 Heavy rain turns any funeral pyre to mud
 In the flood
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 When I was older
 I was a sailor
 On an open sea
 ♪
 But now I'm underwater
 And my skin is paler
 Than it should ever be
 ♪
 I'm watching movies back to back in black and white, I never
 Seen anybody do it like I do it any better
 Been goin' over you, I'm overdue for new endeavors
 Nobody lonely like I'm lonely and I don't know whether
 You'd really like it in the limelight
 You'd sympathize with all the bad guys
 I'm still a victim in my own right
 But I'm the villain in my own eyes, yeah
 When I was older
 I was a sailor
 On an open sea